Our Journey

...and it came and went. We've now officially been married for one FULL month, with many more to go. It's amazing to sit back and realize how fast this month has really flown by. It's not just amazing - it's crazy. Not much has changed - but emotionally, so much has.

Over the past month - and honestly, every day of our relationship - I've fallen in love with Eric all over again. I truly see, that God's gift to me, was him - my best friend. It's hands-down, the best feeling in the world to say the phrase: "my husband".

Planning our wedding was a dream come true. It was everything I dreamt about - everything I pictured - everything we wanted, together. From the engagement night, to catering meetings, to dress shopping, crafting nights with Mom and late-night talks about how we thought the day would end up. Words cannot explain how it felt to wake up Sunday, September 6th - married. As cheesy as it sounds, it was a sense of peace. A sense of completion - that our lives were meant for this.

When I first met Eric, I had no idea we'd spend the rest of our lives together. But, one month into it - I knew we had something extremely special. I felt comfortable, honest, and at home. One month after being married - I'm even more convinced that our imperfections makes us perfect for each other.

Words can not describe how excited I am about our future. But, at the same time - how much I want to soak in every ounce, slowly. Our relationship is honestly, one-of-a-kind. When you wake up, knowing you'd give anything to see that one person smile - you feel a sense of accomplishment. Our relationship is my accomplishment. I've never been more proud of anyone I've ever met. For his ability to love, his desire to succeed, his passion for our future and his ability to make me smile, when I feel like the world has walked out.

If you asked me what part of planning our Big Day was the best - it'd change almost every minute. I loved piecing together ideas, stumbling through the bad ones. I loved watching what we wanted from the beginning come true. From the bridesmaid dress color, table linens, flowers, and most importantly my dress fitting. I loved the moment Eric asked me to marry him, when I went running through the condo hall screaming and jumping up and down. I loved picking and choosing food choices, color arrangements, and our vendors. I loved everything about our engagement pictures, our Save-the-Dates and wedding invitations. I loved knowing from the beginning we wanted those who knew our relationship the most to surround us. Having our family and close friends next to us - kept us grounded.

I love reliving the moments when we "just knew" we found the "something" that would be part of our wedding. Putting together every detail, knowing some may not even notice, was one of the "best's". I love sharing all of the excited moments, stating how proud we are of each detail and smiling from ear to ear. I loved listening to our First Dance song, and immediately agreeing what we heard "was it". I kept telling myself, "Being engaged is perfect!" - Being married surpasses that...by millions of miles.

Robert Fulghum writes it perfectly in "Union":

"Look at one another and remember this moment in time. Before this moment you have been many thing to one another - acquaintance, friend, companion, lover, dancing partner, even teacher, for you have learned from one another these past few years. Shortly you shall say a few words that will take you across a threshold of life, and things between you will never quite be the same."

"Never quite" is an understatement. Despite not much changing on the outside, everything has on the inside. Eric has taught me to not be scared of what love can bring - to not hold back. He's taught me to never give up. No matter what, no matter if every detail was in the wrong place, the cake fell over, the tuxedos didn't match - no matter what, it was going to be the first of many, and it was going to be "our day". It was everything and more.

Tonight, just like last night, I'll fall asleep knowing I have someone who protects me, who comforts me, who trusts me, and who loves me. I have someone to share our joys, as well as sorrows - our triumphs, as well as defeats. To have and to hold, from this day forward. For better or worse. For richer or poorer. In sickness and in health. To love and to cherish. Someone beside me, for as long as we both shall live.

What our future holds is our journey.